Wednesday, January 28, 2009

That Quaint little spark of Incredible.


Tonight I've had a few feelings I'd like to share.
Some can relate and some cannot, some can say "i completely understand", some can say "i cant wait"...

But this is brand new to me, and as far as I'm concerned (selfish or not) I feel like I'm the only person to ever feel it.

I've tried to compare something like this to another feeling or moment...
its nothing like being stuck in your favorite song,
its nothing like your favorite ice cream touching the tip of your tongue on a hot summer day,
its nothing like remembering old childhood memories,
its nothing like crying at the end of the best movie of the year
its nothing like your first car ride alone after turning 16
its nothing like smelling your favorite flower you just received from your loved one
its nothing like anything....

There is nothing like placing my hand on the belly that holds my son.
There is nothing like feeling his tiny foot kick My palm and right then, and every time, right then my gut sky rockets out of my head and i literally can feel it land on the moon, right next to the spaceman's footprint.

I realize i had this deep cavern in my heart that wasn't quite as empty as i expected it to be... its right then, and every time, the heart i didn't know i had bursts out, taking me off guard, plunging romantically with more love any man in this mankind has ever had....
Its like under my palm was everything, every sway of every branch, every blade of plain grass, every bloom of every wild flower and every swirling bumble bee trying to find his treasure and me sitting under this tree my heart sprouted...


There is nothing like it.

3 comments:

Amy said...

I remember feeling the same way when I had mo. That no one has ever loved their child like I loved mo. ha ha you are not alone my brother.
Thanks for sharing that, it was very touching.

Lisa said...

i always knew you had that quaint little spark of incredible! it only gets better.

Erin said...

well, well said.