Monday, September 14, 2009
Remember years ago, I wrote your friends, one of them being Time. Last i knew, he was your starting point, your structure, the nail to your hammer.
Tell me, what makes your heart beat? What makes you so hard to obtain, yet so easy to lose?
Like a young boys very first puppy, like a revived blood flow of a loved one....
Tell me, what makes you smile? and what makes it so unforgettable?
Tell me, Mr Trust, how sweet was the wine? how sweet was the torn soul?
I lost control.
Am i the only one who let you down?
Tell me, what makes your daisy bloom in the middle of a rain storm? what makes you get up and walk again when you've stubbed your toe?
What makes you nervous? what makes you afraid? what chaps your lips? what inspires you to have a line rehearsed?
When you have time, please let me know... I thought I had you figured out, but now I think you took a different route.
I'm not the only one who let you down....
Until then, Mr. Trust, Until then...
I see it... do you?
Sunday, September 13, 2009
I walked into the store, half full of customers, a few party's having some jolly conversations in the corner of the Midvale Starbucks.
As I look over the menu, the little old lady behind the counter started naming off the drinks she can make with Ice. I finally decided on an iced White Chocolate Mocha, Grande please.
Once the little old lady started to conjure up the drink, she than rang up the price... which i really do not remember now.... but I reached into my pocket for my wallet, or lack there of.
I forgot my wallet at home!!! I ran out to my car holding onto that small chance it was there, of course, it was not! I walked back into the store with my head hung low and full of disappointment; I won't be experiencing that wonderfully cold, refreshing, and delicious taste of coffee and white chocolate filling my mouth with joy and happiness. The zing of caffeine will not be rolling over my tongue, will not be falling down my throat and filling my stomach, and will not stream through my veins of despair anytime soon.
I turned around after delivering her the package of bad news, "Stop" I hear, so I turn back around and she hands me the cup of life, the cup of goodness, the cup of iced white chocolate goodness for free. "I've already made it, so its on the house!" she says.
I thank her a few times and head home with my smile.
I get home, find my wallet and head back to the Midvale Starbucks to pay for my drink.
I walk in the store, to a surprised face behind the counter plastered on the little old coffee lady.
"I came back to pay for my drink, and I need one more for my princess at home"
She basically replied with... "who does that? who comes back to pay for something they were given for free..." ... yes... I do, Nayt does.
She rang up my price, I paid for two drinks.
And she handed me an extra!
I got 3 cups of splendid goodness, Oh my good karma is now keeping me up a little extra tonight!
There you go... a story from My night.
I see it... do you?
Thursday, September 10, 2009
If i had some time to think, maybe i'd even write about it... but that would take away from my time to think.
I'd love to write more, I did not think as many people read this as they do.
A few fun facts:
Rivers is 5 months old.
I'm 14 weeks into school.
I've been with INVESTools Inc. for 2 years.
My car cost me $1200, muting my paddle board out of existence.
My cultural diversity instructor is biased, weird.
I don't remember summer of 2009.
I am under paid.
God save the queen.
I see it, do you?
Monday, August 24, 2009
My company is sponsoring a 'Habitat for Humanity' project and I have helped with some of the organization of the event.
The family we are building the house for is a couple with 1 small child, who needs the help.
I am very excited!
I plan on taking many pictures, so i'll post some more tomorrow on how it all went!
On another note, this Friday night and Saturday I volunteered to help teach some paddle boarding at a the Spanish Fork Wind Fest and Green Energy Expo. This will be fun, a luau, kites, sail boats, kayaks and of course paddle boarding.
Paddle boarding has become my new favorite hobbie, i'll post some of those pictures and explain it in another post.
Next Saturday Sept 5th, I'm paddling down the Weber Rivers in a "white water" paddle clinic.
Once again, i will tell more in a future post.
A small update for now, in hopes for more soon.
I see it... do you?
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;
To earn the approbation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;
To appreciate beauty;
To find the best in others;
To give of one's self;
To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition;
To have played and laughed with enthusiasm and sung with exultation;
To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived —
This is to have succeeded."
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
First and foremost: Julie and Rivers. :)
1. Copying my sister
2. Sore muscles
3. A promotion in my site
4. Making my son smile
5. Watching how peaceful he sleeps, so naive.
6. Sore finger tips from a underplayed guitar
7. Today is my Friday
8. My new Ramblin Jack Elliot CD
9. Air conditioning
10. When my son tries to sing a long with me and my new songs
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Dropped off the little man to my sisters, and me and Julie headed to Sonora grill.
It was strange, specially at first. Seeing all these faces I recognize but not always remembering names, and struggling to pull up small talk. But over all it was a great experience, saw a lot of faces that were nice to see and caught up on some lives I never knew about. Ten years passed by so quick, so much has changed, of course everybody moves off in their own paths and often most of us really could care less where the other people are heading or ending up. But It really was nice, at least once in 10 years, to talk to people and see where they are in life.
It reassures me that I love this giant spider web of stories, and its sad so many stories go untold and are forgotten.
-Nathan.. I see it, do you?
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Happy 3 month birth day little man.
I really cannot believe its been 3 months, the first 3 weeks felt like 3 years. But now 3 months, its gone by so fast. Ten years out of highschool, 2 years at my current job, 3 months with my little man, 5 weeks into school. I often write about time and how he has a clinch on my heart, oh dear time, you sneaky bastard. :)
I miss a lot of you out there and hope you read some of my thoughts. Hope you can feel what i do through some of my words.
I will try my best to post more often, a lot has happened and Mr. Time has let it slip by so fast.
Until next time, hopefully tomorrow.
Ex's and Oh's
-Nathan... I see it, do you?
Monday, June 8, 2009
Today i sit upon the newest ride to my amusement park - School; it seems like i just sat down on one of those 35 year old rides, it cannot be torn down because too many people seem enjoy the boring history, cant really update the ride as that would destroy the history. But the stations empty and the whistle blows, things are faster now this train is just to slow.
I've had this rifle strapped to my back for quite some time now, a diploma in my sights - pointing right between the eyes of board walk but i couldn't seem to pull the trigger, couldn't seem to find inspiration from that lone gunman on the grassy knoll. Except today that inspiration saw me through...
Here comes the crack from my head to the sky, here comes the sun lights! here comes the lies!
Today i start school again, happy happy, joy joy, my goal - to finish.
Wish me luck.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Julie's transformation, 1 video every sunday as she brewed the ultimate brew inside her belly... and boy did it grow. :)
This is the long version, i think i'll try to cut the time in half with a smaller version...
Hope you enjoy it, i'm proud of it.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
This is my mom... She Loves me very much even though i like to pee on her when she takes my diapers off! She was very tired here... after 12 hours of being at the hospital with everyone's help, me, my dad, my mom, the doctor and all my family and friends who came to cheer us on... i finally came into this world! My mom was the most brave of all, she lost a lot of blood and almost died, i had to spend the night in the nursery so mom could get new blood all night and morning!! I was very scared for her, but she's all better and strong now! Some stranger gave her blood, thank you stranger!!! and thank you Doctor for keeping my mom safe! Me and my dad are very grateful for you!
Thank you for all my new family and friends who came to see me, i cant wait to show you how cute i'm going to be when i grow up!
You'll see a whole bunch more of me here!
(written by dad!)
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Thursday, April 2, 2009
May you have a constant shine in your ever so near path to the future.
Hear you me, it will only be easy if you allow it to be. You are a rib from my side, a road not traveled, a beautiful highway of still water.
Never let go of this all trusting heart i hope I'm about to hand you. You may wake up some mornings with it being bruised from others amusement or swelling from others attention, do not ever let any of this callous the soft and forgiving skin of your heart.
For this my little friend is my definition to you, I, as your dad, have always needed proof, i do not need organization in my daily moral, i do not need an almanac of poorly written translations to stamp a smile on my face. I remain the happiest i have ever been when i realized the true and final meaning of love and religion is forgiveness.
If your life endeavors lead you to hurt and heartache, forget it, forgive, forgive your self, and move on, for then you are always the better.
Do not stop asking questions, do not stop wondering how a ball of dough becomes a loaf of bread, how a mountain side of snow becomes a flourishing green forest, if you have a dream then fall in love with it, grab it, and run with it.
With every little pulse of blood through your golden veins you have access to something most people forget they have, access to something more important than knowledge, something every child rockets him self into space with ... your imagination... equally as important as any theory Einstein presented to the world. Do not lose sight of this, do not let the daily routine of reality and imagination become two different definitions.
and now comes my selfish bit...
A wise person once told me its not easy to make a mark in this infinite world of white whales, but you, my little monster, made a big mark with out yet entering this emotion torn earth air.
You are my Giant and you are my Lion...
Thank you little Rivers, you opened my heart to that quaint spark of incredible, to that Giant leap of a miracle, to that blissful Roar of love.
Your back support for life.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Dream within a Dream
Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.
I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?
The Late Great Edgar Allen Poe.
The meaning of this poem does not relate to any part of my current life,
but this poem could be the definition of beauty.
Monday, March 23, 2009
You are all wonderful and i am one lucky kid to have you all.
Mother, Father, Sisters, Brother in Laws, Nephews, Nieces, Friends.
Thank you for caring about us, Thank you for giving, Thank you for hosting, and Thank you for showing up.
And again - You make my insides swell, I am one lucky kid.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Its nice having Ikea just down the road.
Now all the room really needs is a baby... and he's coming soon.
He's letting mom know he's there more and more every day...
Soon he'll be playing Soccer and Ultimate Frisbee with his old man.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Thursday, February 5, 2009
A few weeks ago i hear of this competition from Squatters Brewery.
"Design our newest Beer Label!"
So i thought, hmmm... that might be fun.
I work on it here and there through the last few weeks, and come yesterday its due.
So of course i scratch my original idea and start anew when i returned home from work last night.
I was proud of my self, i finished it AND got it submitted on time!
The beer is gonna be called "Hells Keep" its a style of beer that always references the Devil and Hell. It was originally brewed in Belgium, and named Devul (meaning Devilin), is quite heavily hopped to give a floral nose and a tangy, fruity finish. Typically, such brews undergo three fermentations, the final one being in
the bottle, resulting in fine champagne‐like carbonation, and a huge rocky white head when they are poured. Often such beers can be cellared for six months to a year to gain roundness.
I had a lot of fun with this, and got a lot done in a course of a few hours last night, but obviously i worked too hard and was too tired to pay to much attention to Details, even the most important part, SPELLING THE DAMN NAME OF THE BEER.
There we go people, i guess i should of put some High Heels on the little Devil huh?
Heels Keep / Hells keep, do you think they'll notice? hah .... way to go Nayt.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Tonight I've had a few feelings I'd like to share.
Some can relate and some cannot, some can say "i completely understand", some can say "i cant wait"...
But this is brand new to me, and as far as I'm concerned (selfish or not) I feel like I'm the only person to ever feel it.
I've tried to compare something like this to another feeling or moment...
its nothing like being stuck in your favorite song,
its nothing like your favorite ice cream touching the tip of your tongue on a hot summer day,
its nothing like remembering old childhood memories,
its nothing like crying at the end of the best movie of the year
its nothing like your first car ride alone after turning 16
its nothing like smelling your favorite flower you just received from your loved one
its nothing like anything....
There is nothing like placing my hand on the belly that holds my son.
There is nothing like feeling his tiny foot kick My palm and right then, and every time, right then my gut sky rockets out of my head and i literally can feel it land on the moon, right next to the spaceman's footprint.
I realize i had this deep cavern in my heart that wasn't quite as empty as i expected it to be... its right then, and every time, the heart i didn't know i had bursts out, taking me off guard, plunging romantically with more love any man in this mankind has ever had....
Its like under my palm was everything, every sway of every branch, every blade of plain grass, every bloom of every wild flower and every swirling bumble bee trying to find his treasure and me sitting under this tree my heart sprouted...
There is nothing like it.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
I think it would probably be 'Naytron the magnificent'. ya...
I'd travel the world in light speed catching babies from falling buildings and lifting dogs out of frozen rivers.
Oh yes i'd also be able to produce an apple sead out of my arm on demand, i'd plant one every place i helped someone.
All while wearing tight tights...